Fat?! Gross

I dont know about everyone else but I don't like Fat.I hate it actually. I don't appreciate being call "Big Girl", do you call another girl "Small Girl" or "Size 2 girl" NO, but every fat girl is called a BIG GIRL. Like BIG GIRL defines who I am, I'm Big and that's all I am. Well that stops today. I mean people say Love who u are, its about the beauty on the inside. Sure, that's all good and dandy but Fat is Gross.
You cant shop at any store you please, there is a limited supply of clothing you can choose from, People judge you based on your fatness, and its just plain old depressing at times. So Fat is GROSS.

I cant remain fat, I need to do something so I can become a Healthy Size. I always joke about becoming a size 0, but I think that would just look odd. Maybe a healthy 10 would do. that's 12 sizes to drop. I can Drop 12 sizes. Will I be happy at a 10, lets hope so, because when I get there and I still say I'm FAT, then I know its a mental thing.

You know the whole thing you eat because you're sad and you're sad because you eat. What a vicious cycle. At one point I got all my eating into control, then I got happy, started a great relationship and became comfortable, LOVE was blinding me. WELL I NEED TO PUT ON MY GLASSES AGAIN, because this isn't happening again. I need to go DOWN not up. I REFUSE to end up the 600lb freak show on the block.


I REFUSE to be BIG GIRL any longer.

so I will be starting a Fast... That is final. How many days? IDK but a Fast is definitely in need. I need to cleanse my unhealthy ways NOW.